Continuing Ballet??

I’m still really unsure whether or not I should continue ballet after high school.

I mean, I was thinking I shouldn’t tonight. Why should I continue to subject myself to this superficial world?? What’s the point if I’m not going to do this for a career?? I get tired of having to worry about my flexibility and how I look in a leotard. I get tired of wearing the leotard period.

But i want to keep going because I’m committed and i want to follow through. And then tonight at ballet, we did a grand allegro and it was so much fun. I was so proud of myself because I managed to do a saut de basque correctly the first time I tried. And I want to keep doing ballet so I can keep learning these things and keep feeling proud of myself.

So what do I do?? It sure seems like ballet has more negatives than positives. It’s expense and time consuming. And it’s emotionally taxing. But I like doing it. And that reason seems to outweigh all the others.

Maybe I should just not plan on doing it in college first?? So I don’t have to worry about it while I’m getting adjusted to college. It’s a big change.

I want to try different sports and activities and stuff, and I can’t do that if all my time is taken up by ballet.

What will I do??

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Little Update: I was talking to my mom and she thinks it would be a bad idea to continue with ballet in college, at least at first. She thinks I should spend my time trying to make friends and get connected first.


Promotion :D

So…apparently all my hard work this summer paid off….I got promoted!! So now, instead of being a Petite 1, I’m a Petite 2!! I’m very excited about this. It really makes me happy to know that good things do come to those who work hard.

I would’ve found out sooner, but for some reason, we didn’t get the email. I’ll have to talk to them about that tonight (if I remember).

So since I found out only yesterday that I got promoted, I wound up staying for 2 classes. Petite 1 (which I thought was my required class) and Petite 2 (which is my new required class). I’ll probably still take petite 1 class though, for extra practice. Right now I’ve been taking ballet 3 also (lower than Petite 1) and I’ll probably keep taking that, but I guess since I’m a Petite 2 now, I can take junior class. So maybe I’ll take junior class once a week. To push myself??

Also, I know I originally planned to take ballet 3 on pointe, but I don’t think my teachers will let me. But that’s okay, I think it’s nice to have a day break between pointe class.

I got the contact information for a private teacher emailed to me a while ago, but I keep putting off contacting her. I think it’s just cuz I get so busy with school and stuff that I forget. I need to try to remember to do that tonight. (I also keep putting off sewing my new pointe shoes!!)

Also, I know I said I wasn’t planning on trying to become a professional anymore…would you lie to hear my new college plans now??

Right now I’m hoping to go to Ohio State (in Columbus) and major in Arabic and minor in Turkish. Then possibly get some sort of government job that involves translating or international affairs or whatever.

My mom worries because I’ve taken all these art classes to prepare for an art career that I’ve decided I don’t want. She’s afraid my academics won’t look good enough. But I think I’ll be okay. I’m planning on learning french for my senior project, so hopefully that will improve my track record.

But yeah. My life is super busy and hectic right now. But I’m happy with the direction its going. :)

Yard Sale & Senior Project

So today, my ballet studio had a yard sale to help with funding, and now that I’m a company member, I’m required to help out at all fundraisers.

So this morning, me and my mom went to help out. There wasn’t much to do, it was rather boring. They had enough people helping out already. But when it came time to pack up, we were needed, so it wasn’t a total waste. It was funny because my mom kept packing things up that weren’t supposed to be taken away.

A lot of the stuff we donated didn’t sell though. Oh well. It’s out of our house now at least.

But anyways…what’s really been on my mind lately has been senior project. I’ve been trying to figure out what I’m going to do for it since junior year.

I’ve been considering trying to choreograph a dance. I’ve thought about it before, but it just seemed like an unlikely choice. I feel like it will be a really difficult thing to accomplish. I’d like to preform it too.

I already have a song picked out: Almost Lover by A Fine Frenzy. I love that song. It’s really emotional and has a good steady beat to it.

It would be a solo piece, and I was thinking about it being done barefoot. I would choreograph it so that I could preform it, but it would still be challenging for me. I would need help from our studio director, or someone more experienced, because there’s still a lot about ballet that I don’t know.

I feel like the reason I want to do this is so I can prove myself as a dancer, to the people at the studio and myself. I feel like I haven’t had a chance to “show off.” And I’m just really eager to show people that, yes, even though I started dancing really late, I’m still a good dancer. And I know I’d be good at a slow lyrical piece. That’s what I enjoy. Plus, I figured since I would be so busy with dance this year, I might as well try to center my senior project around dance as well – to make things easier.

But I don’t know. I figure I’ll talk to my studio director about it when I talk to him about college and all that. I’m sure he would have to best advice and would even be willing to help me.

We’ll see….but either way, this should be an eventful year.