Changing my Major??

Maybe.

It occurred to me all of yesterday, that I’m not really that excited about my current major. I was looking over all the course requirements I need to fulfill my major, and I really wasn’t all that excited about having to take those classes.

So I have started thinking about changing my major – and I think I’ve found the perfect fit!!
If I really am serious about becoming a translator, I believe that a comparative literature major would be more beneficial. I’ve always enjoyed English class, so I don’t think I’d find comparative literature too dull. Plus, I’ve read on some websites that comparative literature is a good major for people who want to be translators/interpreters.

I’m also thinking of picking up some more minors, to sort of create my own “translation” major. The only problem is I don’t know if that amount of work is doable in 4 years. I plan to graduate on time and don’t want to delay graduation so I can finish up minors.

But OSU offers a professional writing minor and a creative writing minor. Ideally, I’d like to do translation for poetry and prose, but that field is not as lucrative or as easy to break into as other translation fields, so having both minors would help me ensure jobs. You know, I’d have my creative writing minor because that’s what I love to do, and I’d have the professional writing minor as a backup if I couldn’t find translation jobs in poetry & prose.

But I also want to keep my Turkish minor, because you’re obviously not going to get any jobs if you have no 2nd language skills. But to me, 3 minors sounds a little excessive – and like a lot of work. Of course I didn’t come to college looking for an easy ride, but I just wonder if it’s too much??

These ideas are just that though. Ideas. I haven’t officially made up my mind yet, it is just something that has recently popped into my head. Before I make anything official, I’d want to talk to an advisor about this course load and whether it makes sense and is possible to do in 4 years.

As my boyfriend tells me, I just have to find what I’m passionate about – and other than dance, I have no idea what that is. I have lots of “little” interests, but no “big” interests, nothing that I feel super comfortable devoting my entire life to. But then, maybe I’m putting too much weight on my major.
Does your major in college really cement your future life that much??

Made: Ballerina

Right now, I’m watching a show called Made on MTV, where people have a coach who tries to “make” them into something. And in the episode I’m watching now, the girl is trying to become a ballerina.

It reminds me of when I first started ballet, and it also makes me realize, that I’m not as suck-y of a dancer as I thought I was. I mean, dancers are always known for being self-critical, but I feel like a lot of times I’m harder on myself than most because I started late and I feel like I have to “catch-up.”

This show is reminding me how much I love ballet. I haven’t been thinking about it much because I’ve been worrying about college. I wish I could’ve done ballet over the summer, but we need to save money. Which makes me even more anxious to get into college and start my modern class. I have absolutely convinced myself that modern is the dance style that is a perfect fit for me.

Hopefully, once I get into class and see how I like it, I can talk to my teacher about maybe auditioning for the dance department?? I don’t know. The one main issue keeping me from 100% saying I want to major in dance is money – and getting a job after graduation. My parents have estimated my monthly payment to be around $1,000 when I graduate. Add that to a $1,000 apartment bill and there goes most undergrads’ salary.

I’m honestly think I’m probably putting the cart before the horse with college. I think I just need to relax and wait until I get into college, and get into my classes and then take things from there. I just have this sense of urgency. How am I supposed to figure out what I want to do in 4 years?? And if I major in dance, how am I supposed to get my technique where it needs to be in 4 years?? And how am I supposed to afford all this??

Ugh. As I have said countless times before, I hate unknowns.

A Changing Perspective on Dance

I don’t know if you could tell from my quickie blog post last night/this morning, but I’ve started to feel a little differently about dance.

As I’ve been preparing for orientation, I’ve started to feel that excitement for my major that caused me to choose it in the first place and dance has started to seem…less important. Reading the course descriptions of the potential classes I will take has made me so excited that I’ve started to mind less if I get to take dance classes or not. Not to mention there are so many things I want to do in college, I don’t know how dance will fit into that agenda.

Also, this is some news I have yet to share. I’m in the International Affairs Scholars program, so I’ll be traveling this year. First to Toronto, Canada and then to some unknown mystery place (rumors have been circulating that it’s somewhere in France). But with both of those trips planned, it might be difficult to fit dance into that schedule. And don’t forget about money!! These trips aren’t incredibly cheap and neither is dance – there has to be a compromise somewhere.

But I’m still going to ask about non-major dance classes when I schedule at orientation. I would still really lovely to try my hand at modern – I think it would be a perfect fit for me. But if I’m able to take non-major classes, I’d have to decide what and how much dance I’d want to take. I know I want to take modern but I’m also interested in hip hop, maybe even possibly jazz. But I worry all those dance classes might overwhelm me. Plus, OSU has a dance group that does bhangra, which is a type of Indian dance. It’s really awesome. Check Out this amazing Bhangra group on Youtube!!

As you can see, I’ve got lots of potential plans involving dance and I just don’t know which path would be better. But mainly, I’ve been feeling happier about my major choice. For a while there I was feeling kind of down because I was worried I had picked the wrong major or that I wasn’t going to be happy. But like I said last night, regardless of what I choose, dance will always be a huge part of my life and I can be certain that I will keep up with this blog.

I’m back…and better!! :)

So I realize it’s been a long time since I last posted. Life just got busy and I kind of stopped caring whether or not I updated this blog. Also, I was sort of starting to resent ballet…but that’s all over now.

So here’s an update:

We just finished with the Roar of Love about 2 weeks ago. It was pretty good I think. I mean, I still wish I had cooler parts but I’m over that. It was fun. I like performing. I was hoping casting for Mayfest (our next performance) might make up for my lack of “cool” parts in Roar of Love, but it doesn’t appear so.

One of the male dancers is choreographing a dance, and that promises a pretty good part for me. I feel like he knows my dancing better than our director. (I don’t care what he says, I still don’t think you can tell someone’s “talent” after watching them dance like 5 times). Anyways, I heard there was supposed to be a dance for seniors in high school but it turns out to be for the seniors in high school who are also seniors in the company. Basically, they’re all best friends so they get to do a dance together and who gets left out?? You guessed it. Me.

Anyways…I have to do the first scene (the nursery scene) from the Velveteen Rabbit again. God I hated that ballet!! Not so much because of the ballet itself but because the costume does not fit!! My boobs are busting (bursting??) out the entire time!! Not to mention the “dancing” in the nursery scene…doesn’t involve much dancing.

Oh well. I’m trying not to focus on it too much. I have bigger and better things on my mind!!

I have decided to do ballet this summer. After Roar I decided to use the remaining time I have before college to learn and improve as much in ballet as possible.

And I’ve gotten the dance major/professional dance bug back in my system – but not for ballet!! For modern!! I have decided that while in college, I’ll take some non-major dance classes in modern to see how I like it, and if I do, I’ll audition for the dance program later in the year. I really think I have a chance of getting in. Plus the things that are holding me back from becoming a professional in ballet, aren’t as much of an issue in modern dance.

I have also decided to really devote myself to flexibility and getting my splits because I believe it will help me improve my dance and give me a better shot at getting in the dance program at OSU. In fact, today I bought a foam roller which is supposed to be good for deep tissue massage, which is supposed to help increase flexibility.

Its liberating to know that I am the master of my destiny and my age or body or whatever doesn’t have to hold me back. I’ve struggled to “get over” what my director told me at the beginning of the year about my talent and body. But now I’ve decided that I just won’t listen to him. His perspective on my talent and my body doesn’t have to hold me back anymore.

Also, for my birthday in June, I asked for a new, fun leotard!! It’s sort of sporty in olive and orange. I really like it. I also asked for some booty shorts to go over my current leotard. I hate the way it bunches at my butt and gives me what I term, the “wet diaper” look. Booty shorts will fix all that.

My head is abuzz with exciting things about dance. I can’t wait to see what the future holds!!