Changes, changes

I know. I apologize every time I post about how I never update this blog anymore. College just keeps me so busy!! But I’m home for summer now as of 2 days again, so I’ll have more of a chance to keep everyone updated.

So much has changed this year, and since I last updated this blog.

For one, me and my boyfriend broke up. I won’t devote much space to it here, but it was a (mostly) amiable break up. We’re still very good friends. He’s in Russia this summer so we won’t have much contact, but it’s for the best anyhow.

But I’ve finished my freshman year of college!! Wow has it been a whirlwind!! I’ve made so many friends and had so many experiences!! I’ve learned a lot about life and myself and I’m starting to get excited about what the future years will bring. Who knows what next year will be like. I’ll have a new (random) roommate, be living in a new dorm, finally starting on my major classes, and hopefully making even more friends!!

I’ll also have a job next year. :D I interviewed for, and got the job, I talked about in my last post. I even started training already. I went in and worked a shift. I was up to my elbows in pasta all night! It wasn’t particularly exciting or interesting. It was a slow night so there were many times I was just standing around doing nothing, but I’m still glad to have a job nonetheless. I’m hoping I will be able to make more friends through my job as well. I want to expand my social circle!! I’ve still got some training to do when I go back, all that common sense stuff about knife and food safety. I can’t wait to finally be making money of my own!!

I almost forgot, I’m going to be 19 years old in 6 days!! :O I’ll feel so old!! 19 just seems like such a big number to me!! It’s one year away from 20 and 2 years away from 21!! Which are huge age milestones in my opinion. I’m turning into an adult right before my very eyes. I don’t feel like I should be turning 19. I feel like I should be 16 or 17. I guess that’s a feeling I’m gonna have to get used to though. I guess no one really feels their age.

Oh I also managed to somehow get sick. What a great start to my summer!! But that’s a non sequitur.

Hm. Those are the only updates I can think of right now. But it is summer, so I’ll have plenty of time to write if I think of anymore.

But one last thing, I finally succumbed to social pressure and got a pinterest account. So if you use pinterest and are interested in fashion and decorating advice from a soon-to-be 19 year old, you can follow me. :P


Pointe Practice

One of my biggest goals in ballet is to become weightless on pointe. As much as I hate the pain it causes me, I want to excel at it so badly.

My mom said if I really, really wanted to, I could do ballet this summer. But I think that money is better spent on college; plus, I’ve already resigned myself to no ballet.

But I want to do ballet in college (or a dance of some sort), so I was trying to think of ways to keep up my ballet technique over the summer. I could conduct mini classes for myself: but the main thing I’m worried about is losing my few gains I’ve made on pointe.

Unfortunately, our house is mostly carpeted and the only place that has enough smooth floor for me to dance on is the kitchen. But still, that is not a lot of space between the table and chairs and counter and whatnot.

So I was thinking, what is something I could do on pointe that doesn’t take up a lot of space but will help improve my technique regardless?? And the answer is balances.

Improving my balances on pointe would not only help me gain the necessary strength to do pointe correctly, it would help me achieve that weightless look/feeling I desire. They would also help my pirouettes and basically everything else.

The ballet master at my studio says we should really be able to hold our balances for a minute or more – instead of the two-second ones we scrape by with at the studio. I think, for pointe especially, a minute is too long. I think aiming for 30 seconds, or maybe even 15 would be more appropriate to my skill level. Perhaps I could pull off 30-60 second balances on flat – but I’m not there yet on pointe.

I think this could be a real solution to my ballet-free summer, as long as I resolve myself to do it. I also need to get back with my foam roller. I was supposed to have my splits by now (according to my goal deadline).

Oh well.
I’ll have plenty of time to work on them before I leave for college. My classes don’t start until late September!!

No Summer Ballet :(

So the other night my mom mentioned to me that she wasn’t planning on me taking ballet in the summer. I was a little sad by this news since I had assumed I would be taking summer ballet.

But I mean, I understand her reasonings. I’ll have to be getting ready for college during the summer and we need to save as much money as possible. She said she’d rather spend the money on a gym membership (which, honestly I get more exercise there).

But still, I like having ballet during the summer because it motivates me to get up at a decent hour and do something.

But part of me is also relieved I won’t be taking ballet in the summer. Honestly, I’ve started to get tired of all the stress and time ballet takes up. I need a break.

And I’ve been thinking, maybe I’m just not the right “type” for ballet. There’s a reason why “preppy” girls tend to do it and not girls like me (aka: rock lovers who wear dark colors, heavy makeup, and find “abnormal” piercings attractive).

I mean, ballet is very…polite. What with all its rules with behavior and stuff and frankly, I’m not polite. I don’t think im detailed enough for ballet. I just don’t understand focusing so much attention on details.

I’m not saying I can’t do ballet, I’m just saying maybe that’s why ballet and I have had some “issues.”

The Joffery Ballet School?!?

Well…I’ve been looking a summer intensives for next year and I found out that the Joffery Ballet School has southern summer intensive right here in Georgia!!

You know – I think if I worked really hard this year (especially on pointe), I would be able to make it.

For a video submission, you have to film a “short technical demonstration at the barre or center. The student must include plies, tendues, degages (from fifth position, both straight and with plie), ronde de jambe, passé developpe en croix, grand battements, and balances on one leg.” And I can do all that stuff. You also have to include a 1-2 minute classical variation en pointe – which is what I would need major work on.

But that’s doable in a year, right?? I’m 17. My bones have already done all their major growing – so I don’t have to worry about screwing them up. I also go to the gym 2 – 3 times a week. I’m strong enough, and getting stronger everyday.

Again, like everything I’m dreaming up right now, I’ll have to wait and talk to my studio director about it.

But I know I can do it – I just need someone to give me the chance.

The way I see it is, what’s the point of dreaming if you’re not gonna dream big?? I might as well train like I’m trying to get in to ABT or NYCB, even though I probably never actually will.

“Your attitude, not your aptitude, determines your altitude.” – Zig Ziglar

First Day of Class

Today….what a day.

Summer intensive/classes started today. I am exhausted. Let me start by saying that last night, for some reason, my body/mind decided to not go to sleep till about 2:00. Fun.

Anyways…had technique 1 class to start things off. We have a guest teacher in there for the week (plus mixed levels) so it was a pretty easy class. I was thankful for that because last year, I’d experienced going to a class that was too hard for me and getting scared off. Luckily that didn’t happen this time.

Then I had beginner pointe. We didn’t actually do any footwork. Just got our shoes checked to make sure they fit right, and safety pinned our elastics and ribbon so we could sew them on later. I was so afraid because once I got there, I found out that no one at my studio (the director or teachers) liked the store where I got my shoes from because apparently they had a bad selection and inexperienced fitters. I was scared that my shoes didn’t fit right and I was going to have to get new shoes. Thankfully, it appears that the person who fit me did a good job and my shoes are fine.

I had a 2 hour lunch during which I was incredibly bored. I thought there was going to be more people there so I didn’t bring anything to do.

Next I had velveteen rabbit rehearsals. We worked on the nursery scene today. I was given the part of the arabian doll to learn (however this doesn’t mean I will get that part.) Tomorrow is the nature scene, and for that, I’m supposed to learn the part of the blackbird and flower.

Now when I got home, that’s when the real adventure started. I began to sew my elastics into my pointe shoes and after I finished one shoe, I realized the elastic string around the shoe had gotten pulled into its casing. Fun. So my parents and I spent the next god knows how long trying to get the stupid thing out. The whole end of the casing wound up being cut and shredded. I was so upset and afraid that my pointe shoes (which I hadn’t even gotten to use yet) were going to be messed up and ugly. But once we got the stupid string out, my mom was able to fix up the shoe so it barely looked like anything had happened. (Thank god for moms experienced in sewing).

But needless to say, I am exhausted right now. Hopefully I’ll actually be able to get some sleep tonight. My feet hurt and I’ve got another long day tomorrow.

Wish me luck. :)

Summer Schedule

So I’m very excited about summer intensives this year. I gonna be super busy!! I got the first week’s schedule and Monday, when summer classes start, I’m going to be at the studio practically all day!!

Here’s my schedule for Monday alone:
10:00 – 11:00: Technique 1
11:00 – 11:45: Beginner Pointe
11:45 – 1:30: Lunch
1:30 – 3:30: Velveteen Rabbit Rehearsals

I’m very excited about this intense schedule. I’m hoping this will really give me a taste of what its like to dance for your career. This will help me decide what I want to do about college. Here are the performances I should be in this year:

The Velveteen Rabbit
The Nutcracker
The Roar of Love (The Chronicles of Narnia)

I’m glad I’ll have all this performance opportunities because that’s what I really love doing – performing. :)

[[Oh!! And I’m happy to report that my name has been added to the company roster. They just hadn’t finished updating when I checked. It was funny, because my mom and I were just about to send them an email about it when we checked it one last time and behold!! My name was on the list. :) ]]